a silly little life

I've been so hesitant to get out in the dating world.  Either I was too insecure, couldn't keep up with the games involved or just never met anyone who inspired those kinds of feelings.  But it really has been so long since I've even had a date that I became concerned people had started to question my sexuality (not that there's anything wrong with that!).  I've done Match.com and met only jerks.  I tried Zoosk (please don't ask why, I guess the commercial got me) and was totally creeped out by those guys.  And I had a hard time kinda figuring out the app. My friend CeCe had been on Tinder and was having fun flirting, even met a couple guys.  So I thought I would get my toes wet and try it out.  After a few days a seemingly cute guy named Mike started chatting me up.  We hit it off pretty quickly--smart and a great sense of humor.  Best part was he seemed to pick up on my sarcasm which is not something I have an easy time with.  Plus, ...

This is what stinks the most about growing up: it's nothing like the movies…at least in my experience, and quite a lot of people I know.  There is no cool apartment, at least certainly not within a reasonable price range.  Amazing clothes and makeup don't just appear, we have to max out our credit cards instead.  Hot guys don't necessarily approach us, or they aren't interested if you're actually yourself.  The best friend is rarely that loyal or constant in the real world, and our endings are not always so happy. Clearly has been my philosophy from the start. It's fairly reasonable to conclude that I believed all this stuff could actually happen.  One thing I have noticed over the years is a common phrase, "this is a tough age."  Since I was 12 years old I've been told this piece of wisdom from my elders.  Over 18 years I've been told that each is "a tough age or time."  Whether it's hard because you're being picked on...